Unutterable..

I am going nuts. Assignments can give you so many shitty of feelings at times. I have turned down numerous offers of hanging out sessions from friends just because I am so hooked with my design work. Not like I am hating it but design can really eat up all my time for myself. I need a break! So I went to Mid Valley and spent RM450++ in M.A.C on Friday with Christina to release my pressure. Tak jadi to upgrade my powerbook cause I ended up in M.A.C. not MAC Apple. LOL…Got myself a basic and limited set of make up brushes, an eyebrow pencil, cream blush pot, a dark brown eye shadow and a new make over by the make up artist there. Not forgetting I received a free M.A.C. bag and TWO glitter eyeliners. I got lectured so much about the before and after steps for make up and the do’s and don’ts and GUESS WHAT? I didn’t remember a thing right after I stepped out from the shop. It was so darn complicating. I really think I need classes for all these beauty thingy.

I was so obsessed with my new make over that I almost snapshot myself for a hundred shutters. Yes, I could be so vain at times. I then mms-ed Wyman, Fang and Yin Theng my new look and told them about the money I have flung in for the sake of feeling good. As expected, Wyman complained that I spend too much on unnecessary and very soon he predicted I will be broke for don’t know how many weeks. Well dear, I am already BROKE. Fang said the look seems good to him. Actually that pic didn’t manage to show me with make up but thanks for the compliment. I need to save down his words for future reference and history review as half of my lifetime knowing Fang; he has not been saying anything positive or good about me. On the other hand, Yin Theng simply knows the best. Perhaps we are GIRLS and eventually we have this mutual understanding of feeling great by looking good.


All these feeling good finally came to an end when I was back to my apartment. What else could be so frustrating besides assignments. Need to step down the pedal and accelerate for completion. However, there is a blockage for doing so. Received a call from Dad saying he has traveled down to KL just because he quarreled with Mum and I wasted hours to listen to their trash. I don’t mean I hated my Dad or Mum (I do hate her for so many times actually) but I just don’t want to get stuck in their arguments. I am not a mind-reader or a physiologist. Don’t expect me to help because I know it will be useless. Sigh…Don’t want to mention what happened in betweens, as I don’t want myself to remember. My family is just so indescribable. No words could bring out the contents within. We never have this strong family bond or understanding for each other. I love them lots especially my brothers, I just wish there is one fine day till right to the end, we will able to spend quality time and have good time being together just like other healthy families do. Thus I need to work hard to offer them and yet I am such a terrible spender. *Blush..Blush..*