Thursday, June 30, 2005

...Clubbing brings JOY... *(An expired post)

Please…Anyone… DO KILL ME! I am so god-damn-ridiculous-bored…Never in my stage of life, I have felt this way. Waking up at 7am during weekdays just to drive to work and getting stuck in traffic congestions for like an hour just to reach my working place. Gosh. I nearly got myself and the passengers (friends who followed) killed for twice just because I can’t focus wholly to my driving. There is none other than the reason of sleep deprivation. Thanks to that Mr.Lim Qian Fang’s TVB drama series. However, without those I won’t be able to survive the nights all alone. Once I got to work, I’ll sit and online and read newspapers and repeatedly doing the same thing over and over again till 6pm so I could go home. Every day’s lunch is none other than mamak food. This sort of sickening working culture will only ends in a month later. Plus, I am too lazy to loiter around during night times due to my working time schedule. Damn it.

In spite of this, things aren’t this bad after all. I still manage to go back to Ipoh every single weekend without fail. Big-big hugs and berry-berry smooches to my very understanding grandma and aunt that is so kind enough to persuade my parents to let me stay in KL during weekdays and weekends in Ipoh. The travel expenses are quite costly and the trips are freaking tiring but to me, it does worth a lot. At least, I get to meet Wyman and spend some quality time together although at times he would ditch me off for his football games and me ditching him off for my shopping sprees with my mates. So, it is a fair play!

Wyman's birthday is really NEAR. 3 July. Already passed him his birthday present. Got him a pair of 35th adidas anniversaries series superstar. Cost me more than 300 bucks but knew he will drool all over for the gift and hell yeah, he did drool. Planning to throw a birthday party for him but thinking back he didn't even seem to do anything and care for my birthday, I think I'll just greet him only-lah. I always learn to forgive but never forget. TOO BAD HOR? Will see how. Can't promise a thing also. Actually wanted to upload pics to this blog but using mac and the system doesn't have sufficient applications to download. Sigh. So troublesome ler...

*Last Saturday night was a great night. For the very first time having to see both my best friends, Regina and Fang, indulging themselves with liquors in y2k. Their pinkish + drunkish faces look so retard especially there’s a scene where Regina hugging the lamppost. I also bumped into a long lost friend who is also my high school crush in the pub and he doesn’t seem to recognize me at all. I don’t blame him; he has last seen me for about 5 years ago? I felt bad when I was talking to him and checking out my boyfriend simultaneously to ensure he is not fixing his sight towards me. It was a quick chat. That’s it. Nothing big and I also don’t want to upset Wyman about my history. When the night almost came to an end, Wyman was awfully drunk and he begged me for a ciggie. I am not an intolerable girlfriend after all and I let him smoke that night. Though I really hate it when he smokes but I know once in a while, I just need to give and take. By the end of the night, Wyman was too drunk to drive and I took over the wheels. Manual car. Challenging. Don’t worry, accident-free.

*- I haven’t own a blog yet when this happened. But would really love to share this piece out and the moral of this story is Clubbing brings JOY!-> Just goofing, kay!

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Marriage-> What a thinking...

My very FIRST TIME blogging! Ain't sure if I will have the passion to blog everyday but as for the current state, it is good enough to put me off from sleeping in the office. I wonder if I could ever survive these two months of internship. However, two weeks passed by already and here am I, still breathing and kicking. So assuming that I should and will be doing just all right.

My mind now seems so unsettled yet and tangling with myriads of confusions. I am so confused about my future. After going through two weeks of working life- I found out I don't quite suit the working time and also the culture. Very stressful. Everyone is chasing after datelines and the workloads are so overwhelming. I really doubt if I could do well and earn myself a fortune in this field. Plus I don't label myself as a very creative person because I always run out of ideas and I am just plain LAZY...It's impossible for me to stay in this line if my time management is still this bad. Gotta work out something...

The other day, marriage fantasies suddenly crossed my mind. Yes, I know I am just 20 but this doesn't mean I don't have the rights to think about it and my most own-self-thought-appropriate-marriage-year is still age 26. Six years from now. Plus, my boyfriend's friend just got married last Saturday and the incident flickers my mind to start the planning now than just waiting for the right time to happen. It doesn't have to be a grand wedding but it has to be good enough to receive everyone's blessings. When I brought up this topic to my boyfriend, Wyman, yesterday night..we seem to have completely different mindsets. It really cut down my hope for that. Well, who knows maybe in the future I will be marrying to someone else and I am not surprise if I am staying single till I get old-> but of course I don't wish that to happen to me. After all, life is so unpredictable. Sigh... Let's just drop off this issue for the time being. If years and years later I still blog and for those who still checking my blog out, then most probably I'll feed you with an answer.