When sanity is gone.

01/08/08
Will someone who claims that he will love you and you only by all means suddenly just go out and flirt with girl or girls without your knowledge and yet he will still treat you super duper nice and hold your hands when both go to sleep? I was grasping for air when the heart that I have given out to Uncle Wong for many reasons and is threw against a glass door. It was broken ONCE AGAIN. Badly broken. I don’t even dare to pick it up and validate if it could be patch-up back or not. I’m not hoping him to treat me like a princess whereby all my words are commands nor am I pushing him off boundaries to make things go my way.

I really have given my heart out to Uncle Wong. Love with him is unlike those I used to have. I always want to “manja” with him. Every night before going to bed, I’ll kiss him on his cheeks, chest, forehead, hands, belly, etc almost a hundred times and I demand the same from him then only I’ll doze off. We hold hands when we sleep and I love rubbing his belly and resting my head on it when we have pillow talk. I also love waking up having him beside me. He has given me my utmost happiest moment of life. However, at the same time I also seem can’t understand the happiness around me are so short-lived.

I cried for the whole morning, he called to say sorry. Once he got back from work, he hugged me tightly and said that the rest are just flings. Unreal thing. Unlike me, he wanted to be serious with. As helpless as I am, I accepted the happy-for-now-worry-later sort of apology. I think something is really wrong with me. It’s just so not me. Not in a way whereby your man can be two times being unfaithful and yet you can forgive him. Be it forcefully or not, it doesn’t seem to matter. Big SIGH...

Uncle Wong,

When will you stop tormenting my feelings and emotions and love me for real? Would you stop all these heart-wrenching hurts and scars that you have implement in me? I think I'll be going insane one day by loving you more each day which I don't intended too and I just can't explain why I keep on falling into you.

Your girl.

Sweet Getaway...

It has been almost been three weeks I’m back from the Redang trip with my babies from workplace, Eliza and Joanne, and also another new colleague whom I barely close to. Fun trip yor, we got the squeaky funz from snorkeling and the amazing blue sand discovery that only could be seen during the nights. Not to forget to mention about the meal buffets of breakfast, lunch and dinner at Laguna Redang Island Resort, an all-sponsored trip by Maxis.

Joanne said that the whole vacation thing is like incomplete without the boyfriends around as there are so many romantic thingy could be done together, e.g walking on sandy beach holding hands, discovering blue sand together, snorkeling and so much more. However, I see Redang more like a making out getaway place. Can have so many different spots to make love. Different ambiances and different moods. I told that to Uncle Wong and he just laughed me silly. :p ( blerks!)


#Our killing pose at the love circle at more-more tea inn

#My baby Eliza and I

#Cacated pose

#Group picture Take One

#Group picture TakeTwo

#Ah Bee, Baby and Ah Boo

#Another group pic

# Aha..and another one!

#Sweet looking sluts!

#Babes...More and more of me and my baby Eliza

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Once again after my trip from Redang, I discovered UncleWong has lied to me again. While I was away for my vacation, he text-ed a girl's number from Thailand proclaiming he misses her. Yes, I felt fuck'up literally. So much of disappointment once again. What some more, he actually bought a Digi number so I could not trace a thing about them...He's getting smarter

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