Early Christmas Wishes

"Painfully slogged through a hurtful Christmas last year and yet again, another Christmas is approaching near. I do ponder if Santa would compensate me with better things / happier moments for this year Christmas or not..."

This was my fb post status prolly two weeks back. Never in any one-second-thought that I ever wanted to go through that phase again. A truly deeply heart wrenching moment, what a gift of love for my previous Christmas from the ex-boyfriend! So this year, instead of making wishes to get compensation for my Christmas gifts, I actually put myself in a spirit of giving instead of receiving. Less expectation, less disappointment. Don't get me wrong, I still love good surprises and don't mind at all if myRichard wanted to shower me with branded handbags, diamond ring, cash, etc. However, just the other very night I showed him a Gucci tote bag online, immediately he closed my whole internet explorer. How mean!

But the surprise I got for him as Christmas gift has finally arrives today. Can't wait to get it nicely wrapped up and give it to him on Christmas eve. I am so freaking broke for the months to come but I think...at this moment, he truly worths all these. :)