Battling between good and evil

I am unhappy. I cannot just pretend as if that comment has never been posted. I know it was purposely and intentionally written there for me to read. I don’t know why people around him can be so disappointing and so freaking immature and what have I done to them? Absolutely nothing. Why do I deserve then to be condemned and to be judged by irrelevant person in my life? Who do they think they are and what rights they got to do so? I am getting more tired and more tired each day dealing with human stupidities. I remain silent and stay unspoken doesn’t mean I am a person that is easy to deal with. I admit that I am a very emotional person and I have no patience at all, so stay away and stop putting irrelevant comments to try telling me something and yet be enigmatic about it. I know what are you trying to say, I know who are you referring to. I even know you won’t be reading my blog anyway, but I really wanted to tell you…I don’t like you at all and I won’t take time to know more about you so I would like you in the future. I won’t. I don’t mix with dim witted kinds and you are definitely one of it. Tell me I am mean and I know I am. :p

Apart from being damn unhappy yesterday, I still find happy thoughts. Before headed to bed last night, I chatted in MSN with my super long lost Sunday School Teacher, David Hung from Elim Gospel Hall. I used to call him Dai Wai gorgor. 13 years of complete silence from each other, I managed to bump into him in facebook. I really miss him. I remember going to church on Sunday and being taught on bible verses. Choirs and camps…Really brought back heaps of wonderful memories. The most exciting part is he is living in Hong Kong (my most favorite place to be) with his wonderful family and he is now a pastor. Although I have been away from Christianity and off track with him for quite some time, I feel very release and good with someone I could really share about myself, my inner thoughts without being judged, without fearing I said the wrong things…Just in time of need, I found a listener. Just in time of lost, I found hope. Life isn’t that depressing after all and I should really not waste time being unhappy with crappy people. Even if things are ugly, I should only allow myself to be sad, to be frustrated, to be hurt…for a day perhaps? Thank you so much!