What went wrong

I literally felt so suffocated right now. I don't know what has exactly went wrong until my bf has to ignore me. That hurts...way too much. I have feelings too... I don't know why must he treat me like this during christmas. I dont know how to heal myself, every beating of the heart...it hurts a little. What fuck has happened? Felt so helpless that i almost wanted to end my life. I cannot take heartbreaks. I can't afford to take anymore...